I don’t take well to control at all as Im realizing. Me being controlled more so. Don’t tell me how to eat how to dress or wear my hair. You like it long what if i choose to cut it? You want me dressing modest and conservative. What if i want a tank top or short sundress? my fiance shouldn’t be so controlling or demanding. Respect me.
When it comes to tattoos…body mod is my life. Who does he think he is telling me i wont be attractive w tattoos? Fact. All my friends think i am beautiful and that tattoos only add to it. Why am i striving for his approval and to make him happy when its just making me miserable.
Ill be graduating college soon…this isn’t high school anymore. We are adults.
Im tired of letting every one control me. I have a voice and its time i use it. I will be heard
A family were on holiday in Australia for a week and a half when husband, wife and their 15 year old son decided to go scuba diving. The husband is in the navy and has had some scuba experience. His son wanted a picture of his mum and dad in all their gear so he got the under water camera ready to go. When it came to taking the picture the dad realized that the son looked like he was panicking as he took it and gave the ‘OK’ hand sign to see if he was all right.
The son took the picture and swam to the surface and back to the boat as quick as he could so the mum and dad followed to see if he was OK. When they got back to him, he was scrambling onto the boat and absolutely panicking. When the parents asked why, he said ‘there was a shark behind you.’ The dad thought he was joking but the skipper of the boat said it was true but they wouldn’t believe him.
As soon as they got back to their hotel they loaded the picture onto their laptop and that was what they saw.
Well i’ll be graduating soon and have no prospects of a job. But I am making the decision now that i will not be living in New Jersey. Absolutely the fuck not.
I am beyond, absolutely BEYOND sick and fucking tired of knowing everyone. Why is it kids who graduated 4 years after me…are hanging out with people from my past. Why is it at a party someone comes up to me dropping names to close to my heart. Ex’s, past hook ups, past best friends, mortal enemies. Why..why…why the fuck do these people KEEP COMING BACK IN MY GOD DAMN LIFE
My best friend Sam has gatherings a lot with people he gradated with. Those who only graduated HS in 2010, or 09, or those even STILL in HS. So when i’m at these gatherings, some how all these kids seem to know me and not for good reason. In a super market, the gas station, a god damn dunkin donuts, fucking burger king!!!
great examples of all
like burger king. Kid who was known as a rapist and abusive fuck calls my name and starts talking to me. I have no relation to this fuck, and am friends with no one in his circle. NEver said a word to him in high school and had no idea he even knew my name.
and then at a Wawa, 50 minutes away from the county where my HS is, i run into my ex’s best friend..who interogates me about why we broke up…how the fuck do these people find me?
Now this stupid girl that Sam wants to date…who has made a love square cause she wants Tom and not Sam..which obviously makes me want to kick her ass…just writes on facebook and tags the cunt who my ex cheated on me with. The same heartless bitch who WAS my best friend for 4 years….
so now this bitch who wants on Tom’s dick..is also hanging out with the home wrecking whore who ruined my LAST relationship.
that is the ultimate deal breaker right there. Fuck of Jersey i’m done with you and all your endless ENDLESS BULLSHIT!!! i absolutely REFUSE to live there if i have anything to do with it.
Apr 4
Start Over
Wow i can’t believe my luck and these fortunate turn of events!
a producer contacted me after stumbling across my youtube. We went to high school together and he heard me play piano a lot. But now he see’s i not only write my own shit but can sing as well. He wants to meet with Sam and I and hear us perform evanescence to get an idea of my singing and Sam’s guitar shredding skills. I’m SO excited
I’m getting A LOT of requests from people about designing tattoos. my portfolio (walking) stands at 6 people..and soon growing =)
And i got the writing gig at webster hall this Friday night. I get 2 VIP tickets to go, enjoy the concert, and then write a 500 word review on it. I’m fucking THRILLLLLLLED
this will look fantastic on my resume, and might just land me an internship with Webster Hall if i’m lucky. Which will look even better! if i wanna stick in the music industry, i gotta kick the fucking door down. Imagine me writing for Rolling Stone!!! it’s fucking possible. If i just keep trudging forward and succeeding it can happen.
Thank god Karma is shitting on me with rainbows and butterflies right now =)
Mar 22
Tumbling toward Ecstasy
So this girl ironically named Amanda who my ex was going after has this band. They aren’t very good. She has 2 albums on itunes…both are far from known. She’s just this tiny little..nobody from Asbury who’s trying to make it big
Well she just graduated from Monmouth U with a Bachelors…in Voice…i didn’t even know there was such a bullshit cop out degree.
Don’t get me wrong, i love to sing, and don’t get me wrong, i’d love to be the next American Idol.
But to spend 5 years in college..to get a degree..in Voice?
where the fuck is that supposed to take you in life?
do you think American Idol goes through your academic records and picks you for having a bachelors in singing?
If this degree is so legit i should have a bachelors for singing in my shower, and car, and everywhere else.
What a waste of an education. Would normal voice lessons not suffice? and the funniest part of the whole thing, is her voice is FAR from phenomenal..she is no Adele..certainly no Christina…can’t even compare to Tori or Fiona.
I am sorry you sad sad little girl from Asbury, but you just wasted a shit ton of money on a degree that helped you none…
Now on to getting my Bachelors in Origami
